Friends

I am the kind of person that doesn't have many friends...I have people in my life that I get along with, but it takes a lot to become my friend. Growing up I had two people that I considered a "best friends" and both of them hurt me pretty bad, so I decided to not have any more "best friends." I was doing really good with this I had gone seven years without considering anyone a "best friend" and then I met someone that was awesome. We connected right away, we could talk for hours and would tell each other all kinds of stuff about our lives. I was finely able to consider someone my "best friend" again...but the pattern continues and all of a sudden I no longer exist to this person. I have a hard time with people that are your friend when it is convenient and that is what I've become to this person. I'm the type of person that will help a friend with anything and now I feel like I've been dropped for the newer and better model. I know that in some ways this is good, but I hate that I can never have really close friends that I can tell anything. Every single one of them has hurt me, and then it becomes even harder for me to let someone get close to me. And once you lose my friendship it his almost impossible to get back. I want to cut this so called "friend" out of my life, but I know that is not the nice thing to do. I just feel like I was taken advantage of and I'm sick of it.