Spinster in the Making

I've always had to the hope and dream of one day finding my "happily ever after," but today I came to a realization... it's not going to happen.  This has been a really tough year for me, I would say the second worst year of my life, behind 2009; and I'm done.  I'm done pretending to believe that I will ever find someone that will make me happy.  I'm done hoping that one day I will have someone to talk to when I come home, someone to eat dinner with.  I talk to friends and they tell me about someone they have met or someone they have a crush on, etc. and I'm here forever stuck in the same spot.  There is NO single guy in my life, every guy I work with is married, NOBODY talks to me at church or institute...where am I suppose to meet people?  I work 12 hours a day for five days a week for the last two months.  I would like to blame my crappy life on my work schedule, but it nothing has really changed.  Even if I just worked eight hours a day, I would still come home to an empty house, no missed calls on my phone, and nobody thinking about me.  I visited a friends ward today and it just came to me... I'm going to be single forever.  I'm so sick of hearing "you are so special and amazing, you deserve someone really great."  I'm sick of people giving me dating advice when they got married at 21 and have no idea what it's like to be alone.  I don't understand why none of my hopes and dreams can never come true.  Through out the years, I have tried to keep a positive attitude that one day it would be my turn and it would all make since, not any more.  I'm going to accept the fact that I'm going to be a spinster.  I'm seriously considering going to a family ward for church, why go to a Young Single Adult ward when nobody will talk to me.  Nothing says I'm giving up on ever getting married like going to a family ward before you get kicked out of a single adult ward.  Even my students see it, they want to make me an online dating profile so they can find me a husband.  It's pretty sad when sophomores are starting to feel sorry for you.  That's right sophomores can see how pathetic I am...my life is just amazing.